something to live for...

"Write it down but don't ask for help.
I can't be honest with even myself.
Did you ever wish you were somebody else?"
-Anthony Green (Circa Survive)

I want and need something more to live for right now.

It's so easy to become relaxed in your surroundings. It's easy to fall back into the same routines that you use to, or even into a new routine. But, this is getting me no where. It's nice to be home, to see my family, and to have some time to relax. I vowed that I would not move home after college. Where have I found myself? At home, living with my mom, and unemployed. Granted, it's been not even 2 months but still. I'm not happy.

I've been searching for words to write recently and I've found myself in a constant loop of thoughts. There is so much that I want to do and to accomplish, what am I waiting for? There is this thing that's called money and it rules the world. I want to travel, I want to capture things in places I can't even imagine going to at the moment. With the lack of money, I can't travel. To have money I need a job, to get a job I need experience, to get experience I need a job. It's a never ending circle.

I want to know that I'm making a difference. I want to make a difference. I want to impact someone how I've been impacted in the past. The only question now is...how?

I added two more links on my links to others today. One is Tom Conrad's new photoblog, the other is Nick Hook's music blog. They are both worth your while to check out.